golly tolly, and tolly golly

"Faithfulness, faithfulness is what I long for
Faithfulness is what I need
Faithfulness, faithfulness is what You want from me
(So) Take my heart and form it
Take my mind, transform it
Take my will, conform it To Yours, to Yours, Oh Lord"

wait, it's due when?

My head is filled to the brim with current and future class schedules, what needs to be taken when to fufill a first year general ed requirement before graduation, and units, oh boy units. No time for senioritis, which isn't for another year. But every year thousands start their college search and preparation. Oh, I sounded like the back flap of a pamplet in a counselor's office. But anyways, it's my turn. Yay. That wasn't sarcasm. Trying to find at least one other school that I find the least bit appealing is somewhat, I'm not sure of the word, but six months later into the search I have not yet found one, and it is not yet tiresome. Will I find one? I'm sure, and if I don't, maybe it is God saying that Biola is where I am supposed to go, which I think it may very well be. Fifty colleges later still not one I even feel the least bit led to consider, and I've considered those fifty, some more than others, but at the very least past the home page. Feelings lie though, I'll just have to wait and see if it is definitely where God wants me to go. One good out of many I'm sure will come out of this: I'll try to learn how to not let my wills and desires for the future disable me to listen for what God's are.

And it is break, which means I have plenty of time to read Orwell's 1984. First opened the book in March and it should be finished by next week's end.

oh, it is love

It's thanksgiving week, my second favorite holiday of the year, and I only care for two. I always try to find what I'm thankful for every year, and it's always the same: God, family, friends, a home to stay. So of course, I've been thinking about things I am grateful for. Every year since I was two I've thought of God in this list, and even when I've gone through one long four year doubt of my being saved these past four years, I was still thankful for God. I became a Christian this June, and now have an unexplainable hope. This week, these past few months, I've realized I'm not just thankful for God's mere existance, but what he's done for me. He's saved me from the fear I was living with for four years, and has given me "a peace that surpasses all understanding". Honestly, there is nothing more I could ask for better than that. My prayer for that time came true, God opened my eyes.

Jesus, thank you for saving me.


Well it is friday. School starts monday, with a paper for my english class due. I've actually enjoyed writing it; it is an essay having to do with D. J. Waldie's Holy Land. Before that day it might be smart to read a few hundred pages of Drop City, also for class, and just for class. I'll also be starting up my school work as well, but I do not mind it at all.
That's all for now. Oh, and I tried broccoli for the first time today.

Midnight

Finally life has become busy this school year. First there's my english paper, on a book that is so chilling (brave new world), but maybe it'll help me deal with this phobia [nooses and hangings, and yes, I think I'd call it a phobia over a mere fear]. Then there's nanowrimo starting tommorrow, and I don't even have a character analysis written yet, just the plot. But I'm not complaining, it doesn't seem like much, and I guess it isn't, but I'm all for the overwhelming, otherwise what's the point of having untaken opportunities, which is a reason why I chose to spend my November with pen and paper. Anyways, it's halloween, the worst day of the year, but I'm a bit biased with all the nooses around. I don't celebrate the day, so tonight will consist of Microsoft Word (thank God for it) and an intense scribbiling of characters' analysis, with starting the actually novel at 12:01 a.m. And I guess it's at that time when my life will really seem to get hectic, but honestly I'm very excited for it. Hopefully I'll break off any last bits of procrastination that I have through this endeavor, and put what needs to be done first.

NaNoWriMo

I've decided I want to have an overall topic for this entire blog, but until I think of something that interests me, I'll have to share on my life.

Yesterday I received a letter from a friend who'd we'd been writing back and forth. In the middle of the letter she told me of NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. She told me she had decided to sign up for this aspiration. In this event, the goal is to write a 175-page (50,000-word) novel by midnight, November 30. Once I finished the letter I immediately bolted to the computer to sign up http://www.nanowrimo.org/user/225504 (my account if you'd like to see how i've been doing). I've always wanted to do the cliché "write a book before I die", and it's not being published is alright with me, since I can hardly believe the book will be of any quality, since this is about quantity. I still have a few days to come up with a topic the novel will be on, since it must be of fiction, which took away my original idea for this writing. Another friend suggested love, and I am currently waiting her reply of what about love I should write on, but maybe I'll figure out something from the vagueness of it all.

Oh, The Irony! project

Back in January I decided to save up so I could be a youtube blogger, sharing my life stories through videography, which would be the Oh, The Irony! project. Well, here I am in November, $300 short of a camcorder. I am currently looking for a job, so if all goes well by January this project should be taking off.

This blog is for:
-Oh, The Irony! (once i have a camcorder) and how it's coming
-personal, my life, my experiences and life's lessons
-and whatever else I decide to post on

So as the original project is still getting ready to start, maybe this will become a side project once the other is up and running.
My actual goal for these two projects, I have yet to decide.